It helped, of course, that Adam is no stranger to creative hiccups. During the making of KSE’s second self-titled record, their last with former frontman Howard Jones, who was experiencing health difficulties after being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, things reached a low point.
“A lot of that had to do with interpersonal issues and everything that was going on with Howard,” recalls Adam. “The band was unhappy with where we were with the record and having an outside producer [Brendan O’Brien] was really awkward. It was the one record in particular where we all felt we weren’t vibing the right way.”
Even at the moment, Adam is in the midst of mixing a project – with Howard, funnily enough – and admits to finding it “self-torture” to mix a record he’s also producing. “It’s like I hate myself or something,” he explains. “I’ve literally driven myself nuts with guitar and bass tone possibilities. I’m just at a point of frustration. I’m that stubborn idiot who presses on and just makes the project worse, but the only thing that fixes that problem is to walk away for some time, then when you come back to it, you have a fresh perspective, having not thought about it.”
That wasn’t an option during the making of This Consequence, though, as Killswitch needed to make up for lost time; this is, after all, the band’s first offering in six years, and the longest they’ve gone without releasing a record since they started out. Much of this blame can be laid at the door of COVID-19, of course. Having released Atonement, in 2019 – “The worst time possible,” according to Adam – their U.S. tour in support of it was curtailed by the pandemic, two shows in. It was during this period, separated from his family with nothing to do, and suffering with a recurrence of his long-term back problem, that Adam began to spiral mentally. Having made a record with his other band, Times Of Grace [2021’s Songs Of Loss And Separation], and recommenced touring with KSE, Adam was able to steady his ship, so even better placed to support Jesse, who had been plagued by self-doubt on Atonement, too.
“Adam’s a great producer,” says Jesse. “He knows I’m a sensitive little flower. He knows how to handle me because he’s seen me in the studio, having total meltdowns. At the time, I was giving these guys my best and it wasn’t doing anything. I really had a moment there. I remember going for a long walk in the woods and thinking to myself, ‘Shit, dude, is this it?’”
“I wasn’t worried about your lyrics,” Adam tells Jesse now, throwing a curveball. “I was worried about your vocals. I was like, ‘Crap – we’ve got to get a new singer!’”