However, it’s only now, at the age of 37, that RØRY is able to share these stories. “I gave up music in my 20s, and swore I’d never do it again,” they explain. “I was very chaotic [at that time]. I was searching for validation in places I shouldn’t have been, and obviously [with] drink and drug use, you’re never going to make it when those things are in the way of you. I’ve felt a lot of anger towards the things that have happened, I didn’t have the focus that I have now. The things that I sing about now are things that I went to then, but I never would have been able to sing them [before] because I was so ashamed.”
RØRY began to heal thanks to therapy and a quest for sobriety, and it’s now been three years since she last touched alcohol or drugs. A certain sense of embarrassment that they felt, meanwhile, persisted. Hardly any artists break into the industry as they get older, and she began to worry that she’d missed the boat. It didn’t help that in their day job writing pop songs, they’d often hear men in the room suggest that even being 22 was too old to break into music. She’d grown up in the age of The X Factor, where anyone over 25 was foisted into the last chance saloon and treated like a pensioner.
“When you hear that over years and years, it begins to take a toll,” RØRY sighs. A lack of role models made her experience a seemingly lonely one, too. That was until they discovered the music of Self Esteem, who exploded with her recent album Prioritise Pleasure at the age of 34. “I cannot tell you how excited I was to discover [her]. Finally, oh my God, there was someone who was doing it, someone I was looking up to.” She hopes, one day, she can be that role model for anyone else trying to break through a little later on in life, and wants to start a record label that will sign those sorts of artists, as well as those who are recovering addicts. “Just because some of these artists are older doesn’t mean they can’t tell a story – in fact, quite the opposite.”